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This blog is about an 18 year old struggling to overcome his drug addiction. He depicts his day to.. day life in vivid detail and hopes to help fellow addicts or just anyone who has experienced.. addiction in their lives through his own personal events.

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  • Breathe
    on Mar 3, 2010
    Throughout my life I have fucked up a lot of things. I don't consider myself a bad person, I just feel that I have a lack of thought when it comes to certain situations. I seem to fuck up most when I feel stuck, lost, confused. I need to remember tha...
  • Fuck therapy
    on Dec 28, 2009
    I'm over theraphy. I'm sick and tired of spending 3 days a week dedicated to something I can just as easily get from an AA meeting. The therapy is just overwhelming and strenous. I can't stand the drive to Roswell every single day pretty much just fo...
  • Words
    on Dec 26, 2009
    It never ceases to amaze me how people expect their words to move mountains. Some people can oritorically, but I'm not talking about it in that sense. I'm referring to the way people attempt to hurt or bring others down by their words.The expression,...
  • Avatar, Chrismas Presents, and Pita Chips
    on Dec 25, 2009
    Avatar was one of the best movies I've ever seen, and that's even while I had an eye infection going into it. Which hurt like hell. The graphics throughout the movie were like none I had ever seen and it was just flawlessly put together. The plot was...
  • Merry Christmas/Non-denominational Holidays To All
    on Dec 24, 2009
    And a happy new years.No entry today/yesterday.Been busy and had eye problems today.Tune in tomorrow.Good night, world.
  • Blessings In Disguise
    on Dec 22, 2009
    I've come to believe blessings come in disguises. For example, when I'm feeling like I'm slacking on my meetings I go to one tonight and it is perfect. Awesome. Left me with the most pure feeling of bliss I can even begin to describe. It reminds me h...
  • Woooooah, Time For A Breather.
    on Dec 21, 2009
    Life hits you with struggles when you need them least. For example, today I was hit with some of the hardest news to hear. The kind that breaks you down, tears your heart out, and stabs you with a spork. But, it's alright. You wanna know why? At the...
  • Haters Everywhere We Go
    on Dec 20, 2009 in Haters
    I find it funny how people try to bring me down for getting sober. Only someone who doesn't have the mental capacity for how substances affects someone would bother rationalizing any attempt at why I shouldn't be bettering myself. It's always a comic...
  • Christmas Break
    on Dec 20, 2009
    Fucking rocks.That is all.Good day, world.
  • Back pain
    on Dec 12, 2009
    I have always struggled to deal with my chronic back pain. It's been an issue ever since I can remember. I've had troubles getting up from my bed, where it hurts the worst, sitting down, and even standing up. Any of those three activities for an exte...
  • Hm...
    on Dec 10, 2009
    Yesterday I got in my first car accident. Wow, never want to do that again. It all started when I was in Chelsea's driveway after cleaning out my car. I decided it would be awesome to wash it since it was all clean inside, right? WRONG. That was my f...
  • Wednesday = Busy Day
    on Dec 9, 2009
    I start out the day with a 8-12 day at school quickly followed by outpatient from 1:30 till 4:30. Then I have to go to a holistic therapeutic session which is massage because glass blowing wasn’t an option for this month. I’m pretty upset that I...
  • Another Day In Sobriety
    on Dec 7, 2009
    Brings me more and more happiness each time. I love this new found lifestyle i've been living. It gives me the best feeling in the world to wake up and not have to worry about getting money, finding drugs, and feeling guilty. I can't begin to describ...
  • 21 Days
    on Dec 6, 2009
    It's been 21 days since my journey has started and I haven't slowed down one bit. My life has become a lot more hectic and cluttered, but that's almost what I need right now. I need rigid, I need structure, I need rigorous. I need someone to kick my...
  • 8am On a Saturday Morning
    on Dec 5, 2009
    Snow is falling down outside. What? In Georgia? Too bad it doesn't stick worth shit. I love snow, I love the winter, I love Christmas. It is my favorite time of the year, by far. The way the whole entire state of humanity changes to help others and a...
  • It's Official
    on Dec 3, 2009
    I've become addicted again. To Runescape. Zomg lol. This game was my shit growing up. I played all day everyday and never regreted one moment of it. In fact, if it wasn't for the game, I wouldn't know half the things I do about computers. It really s...
  • Hi My Name Is Addict/Alcoholic, My Problem Is Oli
    on Dec 2, 2009
    It's funny because drugs and alcohol never seemed a problem before. They seemed the solution. To everything. Bad day? Drugs. Depressed? Drugs. Feeling shitty because you're coming down? More drugs. Now I realize just how stupid it was each and everyd...
  • I Don't Like Needles.
    on Dec 1, 2009
    Odd title, I know. And no, Milton, I'm not shooting up heroin, nor have I ever, nor will I ever. Funny how rumors spread so fast in a school so big. Anyways, I had to get blood drawn today and, well, I'm a fucking pansy. I hate needles. I hate the si...
  • Adams Song
    on Nov 30, 2009
    I've always had a deep place in my heart for the songs by Blink 182. Growing up I remember listening to them in my sister's car and feeling as if they were perfect to describe the situations of my life. Adam's song was always a particular favorite of...
  • Two Weeks
    on Nov 29, 2009
    Two weeks today. That's some powerful shit. Looking back upon these past two weeks a lot has gone down and I have still managed to remain sober. I thank God every single night for another day without using drugs to cope. Yesterday was one of the hard...